unproductive

i wish i could be stronger but sometimes i couldnt.

no one will ever get to understand what i have been through.

my life is a big mess right now that i wish to dump the parts i dont want ,away.

i have been comtemplating whether i should or shouldnt I.

i just cant make decisions. i am indecisive.

i do not even know what i want. 

i hate it when people judge me not based on who i am but something else. 

i dont even know how will i ever find a job.

i dont even know who should i called as my friends or really friends?

i just dont know. 

but on top of all that i dont know.. I know that i will be back HOME soon enough to think of every other think that i dont know.

updates**

above 2 pictures was taken in the mediapark and the below 2 pics is taken in University of Cologne. 

This four pictures was taken in front of the famous Cologne Cathedral. It was really amazing!!!!

on the left was the cathedral, on the right is taken in the uni of cologne.

some random pictures taken in the town of Cologne.. See Louis Vuitton?? beside it was Lacoste

some pictures taken while the shooting was going on.

this pictures was taken in Bonn.. and i am in front of the Birth house of Beethoven! =)

some food we had in Siegburg.. and yummy yummy ice cream! wheeee..

so this is the only some short updates from me.. till then.. tschuss!!!!

different

i had a good 3days. Cologne, Bonn, and Siegburg. Eat till i was really bloated. All was good. but its a  weird feeling inside me. Nope, i did not buy anything.. not any souvenirs to remember. I just dont have any passion anymore. I just wanna go home. many things.. so hard to describe. cant wait till i touch down in malaysia. =)

*updates*

out of boredom the other day.. went to the park to play in the playground.. and then back at home.. seeing so many flowers growing.. i plucked them and made my name out of it..

halfway at the office, we were invited to the strawberry farm to pick strawberries... so tat explains why i look so formal in the strawberry picking pixies... the strawberry are just so fresh.. yummy.. yummy...i was given a small bucket to pick the strawberry to bring pack home..

tat is my hardwork of eating and picking strawberries to take back home.. 

and the five buckets.. is what we got at the end.. it's more than 5kg.. and thus it is cheaper.. only pay for those taking back home.. those we ate while plucking is FOC..

and we went picnic last weekend.. was awesome.. so many activities going on.. families canoeing, swimming, skating and lots more.. 

we found a secluded place to have a picnic where no one could see us..

and those kids were teaching me the basic german language.. which i found it hard to grasp.. i dunno why.. it is so weird learning German.. but both 2 kids are so determine to make me learnt.. 

walking around and snapping pictures all the way!!! =)

***on a diff note.. i am finally a degree graduate.. just that.. i am not satisfied with the way i graduated.. sigh.. i should have done better.. =(

Technical Glitch?

so funny, the day after what had happened with the uni application system.. now the results is also having a technical problem.. yeah rite.. most probably they are scared.. wrong results coming out??? blergghhh

Who is Responsible then?

The Star newspaper headline

USM’s blunder irks parents and students

certainly had many hopeful students crying foul for what had happen. Apex Uni? and u expect this kind of technical glitch happening? 

no excuses man.. it is definitely the uni's fault. and students are only giving 2 days to respond to the result. it is such a short time.. what if these students are somehow poor students who maybe could not respond immediately.. then will their place given to them taken back? and wat about those students who have been told they are accepted and the next minute.. they are actually not accepted?

 such an agony to go through. it is definitely a thing tat the uni administration should rethink about the damaged that has been done and trying to rectify the problem and MAKE sure that it does not happen AGAIN!

Juni Already

1st Of June and it is holiday again here. Why do they have so many holidays here.. and shops are all closed for 2 consecutive day.. No shops are open on sunday and then with every holidays that they have here.. the shops wont be open.. 

anyway, i cant wait to go back home already.. it's been not long but kind of tired here d.. i just wanna go back home.. Home Sweet Home.. 20 more days..