June 09, 2009

unproductive

i wish i could be stronger but sometimes i couldnt.

no one will ever get to understand what i have been through.

my life is a big mess right now that i wish to dump the parts i dont want ,away.

i have been comtemplating whether i should or shouldnt I.

i just cant make decisions. i am indecisive.

i do not even know what i want. 

i hate it when people judge me not based on who i am but something else. 

i dont even know how will i ever find a job.

i dont even know who should i called as my friends or really friends?

i just dont know. 

but on top of all that i dont know.. I know that i will be back HOME soon enough to think of every other think that i dont know.

3 comments:

Pamara Lim Siew Ling said...

when r u coming back?
maybe u can go for masters course if cant find a job yet or dun plan to work yet. u have worked hard, relax a lil first. im sure u will find a job soon.

chenglit said...

Ying, Life wud b tough at times. I do face lotsa dilemmas in life. I think no one cud really help us other than ourselves.

Others can jus give u courage and support. Add oil. and take care gal. =)
Really hope that i can go Germany too.. =) =)

LiYing said...

Pam : heyya.. i will be back on 22nd June =)the thing is, i dont even know what i really want. But i would prefer to find a job as i dont want to continue my studies. Will see how things work out.. Things would be much better and clearer when i am back. Thanks! You will be continuing your studies?

Lit : yeah.. understand.. it is only us who have the final decision.. others just could give support and opinion.. haihs.. so many things to think of.. You will be visinting Cheng in Germany??? =) u take care and all the best ya! =)