Octo.. Octo

it's the end of a glorious month; already. time flies..
and i am so looking forward towards the end of the year.
and planning ahead of course, towards a brand new year.. ;)

i breeze thru whole of last week without my boss around.. and then this week was only working for 3 days.. and 2 days off.. how perfect to end this month.

i cant wait for another month to start. come whatever challenge that is being given.. i will ease thru and hopefully begin to adapt to working life..

and to the beautiful skies above.. i so love the fact that the earth colours of blue, green and white certaily cures your unhappiness away.. looking things at the bright side, patience and perseverance..

routine gets going again

how am i happy looking forward to weekends on friday and when weekday comes again.. i sigh.. and the routine will continue again. 

i hate this feeling.. and i am having this conflicting emotions with myself lately. 

i dunno what is going on and i hope this feeling will go away pls...

am trying to learn everything by heart and i plead that people will give me more time to prove it..

enough said. 2moro is working day again and i hate the fact that this 1 week will be one hell roller coaster week.. TIME, please pass by very very fast this week.. will u? thank you.

going down memory lane

I was looking thru my high school magazine of Year 2005 and i found pages on "a look inside the mind of a georgian"..
and then all the memories kept coming back.. i wish i could just go back one day and experience the life of a high school student again.. those were really the good-old-days of my teenage years.
so at that particular page.. i found questions that were asked to the former georgians..
here it is...
1) Can you give 3 words to describe St. George's?
--my high school..

2)Who was your favourite teacher?
-- have a few.. mr ang who was my bm and form teacher for three years.. but i think i would have to give it to Miss LKY.. the maths teacher i had in F2.. who never fails to give us much hwork and of course.. did scolded me ones and i had to apologise to her.. i wonder where is she now???

3) What was your favourite food in the school canteen?
-- no need to hesitate.. definitely surely is Pak Ali's food.. u can never ever forget the nasi goreng, nasi lemak and NASI AYAM on TUESDAY!!!!! until those tender ruins the canteen stall owner.. grrr...

4) Draw yourself as a georgian...
- hehee.. cant draw rite now.. next time..

5) Which place in school was your favourite spot?
- in front of koperasi.. or somewhere quiet..

6) What was your ambition when you were a student, and what are you working as now?
- to be involved in media line.. but currently not.. but am chasing my dreams.. =))

7) How has being a Georgian influenced your life?
- just proud to be one.. what was taught in school still remains freshly in my mind..

----i never stepped back into high school ever since i graduated from there 4 years ago.. i would want to visit it one day... i kind of miss the frens and everything..


seniors and juniors, all gathered here..
together we march on without a fear,
goodwill and happiness we want to spread,
everyday's a challenge,
let's go right ahead,
onwards we move, towards the light,
resolved are we to face the fight,
giving our best,
from day to day,
if there's a will, there's always a way,
around the bends of life we'll have to turn,
near and far fond thoughts will always burn,
St George's St George's will ever proclaim,
Honour and uphold you forever praise your name..
St George's St George's,
will always be true,
OUR DEAR St George's Girls' School...
(i hope i got that right)...
imagine we sang this song.. almost everyday with lagu negeri and bahasa jiwa bangsa..
how time flies....=)

life minus work

all recent post have been about work and all.. but NO. this is not going to be an emo post. 

although work is not fun as i wanted it to be.. but life without work is rather awesome.. i attended high school form 5 reunion, form 6 reunion, going out with bunch of my closest friends, cousins, special thanks to ms lee for listening to all my ramblings during lunch time, attended raya celebration at my coursemate hse in seberang jaya, the awesome mee udang tat her mum cooks, thanks so much.. u know who u r =), bday celebration with friends of mine and not to forget my family who have been really supportive of wat i do..

thanks everyone.. all those happiness really make me cherish u ppl around.. thanks much everyone.. =)

grant me a wish

yes, please.. if i could just make a special wish this month, please fast forward the time to Aug2010. fast please. i am begging....

i am stranded here with no direction and people here are not at the same thinking level as i am. 

if i were to be stuck here any longer, i wonder how would i become..

why are ppl so contented to be where they are.. it is not that they cant dream.. 

Yes, u may dream.. but make you sure you work hard enough to realised your dream.

I, wont be the same as them. 

thank you. august 2010.. please... 

thankyou.danke.merci.gracias.xiexie.kamsia.terimakasih.

true, =)

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. (very true)
But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings. (yeah, i know.. but couldnt help it)
You are lazy - you dream of a peaceful, calm, uncluttered and uncomplicated life. Your ideal would be to share a permanent base with some person or persons who would be able to demonstrate on-going love, peace and security. (eerr.. i disagree.. i dont think so..)
You feel truly deprived - not getting your fair share, but you have accepted the fact that that is the way things are at this time and that it is prudent to let matters slide and not hit your head against the wall -so conform and agree for a while. Accept the situation - nothing can last forever. (agree, couldnt be more true for my current situation)
You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions. (meaning to say i will not stay long? muahahaha; JK)
You don't like conflict and you endeavour to avoid criticism. You want to do your own thing and to be able to decide what is right for you. You have considerable personable charm - and this is used with considerable effect on those that keep your company.

crying does not solve my problems. I need to be firm and be strong to overcome everything that it's being thrown at me.. (pyscho-ing myself that i will be fine) *fingers crossed*

numb as it feels

it's been almost a month since i started working. i know i should at least update a bit... but i choose to let this little ramble space of mine blank. i dunno wat to write.. happy that i started working? to be honest the answer is a big NO NO.. i dunno why... i couldnt even feel that i like my job. i am tyring to like it but to be honest, i cant.. everytime i tried to ask ppl things i dunno.. i just get ignored.. or they will have this look stamped at their face "how come is this girl so stupid".. so many terms i don't understand.. and everytime i tried to ask around.. people will look at me as if i am dumb.. so wat if i am dumb damm it.. screw you ppl who dont even wanna teach me when i asked.. you guys have been working there for freaking years compared to me who is working less than a month.. of course there are many many things that i dunno... so who to blame? me myself? i am really trying but you people around never give me the chance to learn. I never wanted to give up easily without trying.. but everytime i tried so hard.. i am falling even further.. and questioning myself day by day.
grrrr... somebody.. save me... =(
let me give another month a go.. before i decide on something else...