Merdeka or M-E-R-D-E-K-A

hmmmmmm...
every year i look forward towards this day, but this year i dont feel anything. Everything feels numb.. 50 years of independence??
Things just dun feel the same, was it that i actually know more on the other side/part of the country that i never knew for the past 19years? it is this 1 year that i know the other side that i feel we are still being imperialised.. i dun damm thinking that we are 50 years old... we are not even that old to think critically or maturely. Sigh.. what a shame we are of ourself....

Usually for the pass 19 years of my life, i spend time singing merdeka songs, going to school decorating classrooms, going to school to celebrate merdeka and lots of crazy stuff i have done. mainly because it was fun and me being so pretty naive on the merdeka issue.

I have grown out of the SHELL of merdeka and for the past almost 1 year, where i learnt the other side of the country that i begin to realised much things that some actually amuse me very much.

me here writing instead of doing some merdeka crazy stuff truly shows that i dun really get into the mood of MERDEKA.. haha.

I have been deprieved of sleep for the past one week, starting with the YKT 214 assignments which then leads to my "busy-ness" of YKT 214 presentation and the "big" thingy.. YKT 211.. that was one tiring assignment.

I need a good and comfy sleep... so merdeka is the day for me to regain back my deprieve sleep. haha.

last but not least, those who are clebrating merdeka, happy merdeka...
my birth nation, happy 50th independence day..

to those who like me, is not celebrating and rushing on ykt 211 assignment. happy doing your assignment and merdeka to you on monday, 3rd sept.

NITEZ!!!

a stressing week ahead..

still in midst of doing ykt 214 assignment. hopefully it will turn out fine. still i have ykt 211 to worry about. dealine is on 3rdsept. how stressful it is this sem??? it's a hectic and alredy my sept month is fully pack.. i seriously which every could be forwarded till end ogf sept and study week comes fast. i super cannot wat for this sem to be over with. it is so stressful to thnk of it! i need space to breathe.

i cant wait for holiday!

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to recap, my bleak week, yesterday my fav team lost. haha.

today, on YKT 214 we learn on media imperialism. with the core and periphery and so on. and obviously there is discrimination between the poor and rich and between the poor or rich there is still discrimination and it wont end that easily.

it's officially a bleak week!

on my previous post i mention that malaysia has one more pair left in men doubles semis, and yes, they lost. so no malaysian pair in the finals of world championship. how sad is that in our own front, we are celebrating our 50th independence in weeks time. sad. sigh.sigh.

i still havent touch my 214 assignment readings and 211 research.. hmmm... i'm too lazy la, to put in a way.. haha

A week that is full of drama

monday was when YKT 214 lecture is on watching the debate between 3 scholars. i was optimist that pool's thought was right as i only wan the ideal site of the world, pretty being naive. but herbert schiller was more realist and pessismist. then with YKT 211 research assignment going on, i alomost died. sigh. why is it has to be so tough??? life hasnt going the way it is.. breeze and peaceful.. everyday is tough.. and having not enough sleep is another problem. sigh. i dunno how many a times had i been crying.(for another unavoidable reason)-not for assignments nor studies. sigh,sigh,sigh.

to know my favourite team and the defending champs on england start their 2 matches with a disappointing results alos do not help much and in our own front.. the badminton world championships. men singles, out- men doubles-malaysia only left with one pair.. the much expected, Koo-Tan failed to make the semis. sad.sad. sad. how sad this week is. and it'snot even ending yet. 2 more days to go. will the veteran pair go all the way to win? i hope so. hopefully its the end of a bleak week.

oh i almost forgot, 21ppl died in the horror bus crash in bukit gantang.. that is also happening this week.. what on earth is going on this week??? sigh.. who is to blame for this????/ grrr.. everything seems not right.

i think this is one of THE toughest week in my life. i never been through such a roller coaster life. life with studies especialy this semester is killing me. it's hard le. the pressure is too much! grrr.. i just cant wait for this smester to be over and to shout out a hug relief!!!!!

all of this is my ramblings, that is the main reason why i named my blog- ramblings of the day.

blah-now i have ykt 214 assignments and ykt 211 assignments to very about. hopefully my next post will be a cheerful one.

Happy graduation to the USM graduates! =)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

something random

coming tomorrow will be the 6th week of this semester. which reminds me of : still i have not really done any readings yet for this semester. i practically drained out this semester, maybe because i was working my ass off for the past 2 months while i am supposed to be sleeping and wasting my time at home to rejuvenate myelf for the 2nd year of uni. Instead i work and now i am feeling the after-work-syndrome.. of not wanting to study and wanted to just go out and have fun of it. I do not know why but i just hated this semester this year. and last week i realised that there is so much to offer than studying. I have learnt something which could change my perception yet again on life. I cried hell shit off last wednesday due to some unforeseen circumstances. I was not ready for changes in life but still i have to pull through with it. Not all people are born lucky. and some just take for granted things they are in.
i am truly blessed but sometimes i do blame my parents if things doesn't go right the way i wanted it. So i shout out at them for making my life miserable. sigh. i regretted it though.

Lectures and Assignments

YKT 214 on Monday was supposed to be on video screening on Debate between 3 scholars. Herbert Schiller, Brian Winston and Ithiel de Sola Pool but sadly technology let us down. The video tape in form of VHR not functioning thus technician cant do anything but to convert the VHR to CD format. Sigh.. so it was postpone to Thursday and hopefully by then we get to watch it as it will help us in our assignment, very much indeed.

So instead of Video we had lecture on the development in Communication Technology. One interesting part of the lecture was when Pn Wang tried explaining on dependent development/development of underdevelopment. Literally, Andre Gundre Frank from his radical studies says that the transnational corporation with the backing of the developed nation/the European government trying to expand their business/military to the poor nations who is looking to improved their country in one way or another. With this transnational who have this technology and machinery stuff, they tried to promote their technology so that this poor lil nation could buy it and use it to “developed” their nation. By this, it means that it is a dependent development when we say this poor nation have to buy this machine, technology and etc to build their nation without knowing the other aspect of this huge/domination TNC who tried to manipulate them for the sake of business to gain more $$$$$$$.

So these poor old lil nations who have bought this technology from TNC of course will owe them a great amount of money. So instead of this poor nation becoming more develop with all the technology that they now have and with the debt amounting, they are actually becoming poorer and poorer. Which here means, development of underdevelopment. They developed yet at the same time they are underdeveloped.

Example here is on Indonesia who owed greatly to IMF(International Monetary Fund) during the Asian Economic Crisis in 1997 and this country is still owing to IMF and cant afford to pay back resulting in the nation becoming poorer and not helping them to become a developed nation. Sometimes I wonder how cruel could this people be. But then again, this is the greed of people. Like, ppl always says, this is life… whoever have the power will conquers all and whoever don’t will be conquer.

Like what was mentioned during tutorial, examples of transnational corporation or better known as multinational companies(MNC) in Penang are like Intel, Dell, Agilent, Motorola, Seagate, Solectron and lots more. Reason being here is the cheap labour. Using our manpower for their own sake. Profits that they make will be brought back to their respective countries. And we the labourers, is still is and will be in the state just as we are without us becoming richer.

Finally to conclude my entry this time, status quo is still there. =)

I need help!

I shall start with my free trip on Rapid Penang when the provide free trips for THREE days fro 31st Jult till 2nd August 07.

I went to the Bas Hub in Weld Quay to try my ride from there to Sg Dua(USM). I took the free booklet that was distributed and flipped through to see which bus should i take. Namely U301, U303 are the buses that will pass thru sungai 2. I waited there for 15-20minutes. No sign of bus going to Sg2. written there the frequency of the bus is at the interval between 20/30mins. Disappointed, but i continued waiting for i really want to try after years of not taking a public transportation. So finally, U303 came. I hop into the bus and took my seat. Was clean and nice la.. 1st impression. Then came this old lady who asked the bus driver on whether will this bus passed Sg 2, the bus driver ignore her and say "tak tahu". What the heck??? written in the newspaper, the drivers are TRAINED and will be courteous.. but this, is a bastard, no manners driver who never did his duty well. The lady board the bus and asked a few of us whether this bus will be heading to Sg2, we told her yes.. and she took her seat. I was thinking.. this is not good. I hate it and the public transportation in Penang will not improve.

And what written in newspaper as well is the drivers WILL NOT wait till the bus is full before the y move to the next destination.(Maybe it is because this is a free ride, so why not make it full 1st) I was wrong.. they did wait at the hub for the bus to be filled before they move on. Plus 20minutes to wait for the bus in hub and plus extra 25minutes seating in the bus before the bus move. I am in Weld Quay for F***ing almost one hour. and i was relieved when the bus started moving after that.From the booklet provided, U303 was supposed to leave the Hub to Jalan Jelutong via the expressway.. so i tot i could reach faster, boy i was wrong again. THe driver had to turned into Komtar to fecth more passengers. The crowd was packed in Komtar and everyone was pushing their way up into the bus. The whole bus was sardine packed. I was geram because the driver did not follow the route as written. After much stopped and other place he went be4 following the actual route back, i was already started cursing at Rapid Penang and sweared that THIS WILL BE THE 1ST and LAST TIME I AM ON BOARD USING RAPID PENANG!!!. The journey from Weld Quay to USM, SG 2 took me 1.5hours, where by car or by other public transportation i could easily reached by 30mins time.

The reason i took Rapid Penang was because i was Impressed with Rapid KL everytime my trip down to the city centre. But R.Penang has prove me wrong with the rude bus driver as well/

Maybe others might enjoy Rapid Penang and think that their service is good but not for me. They let me down. No more public transportation. Wonder with LRT soon... will it help to solve problems in Penang??? I am wondering...

On the next issue, the Malaysia Film Festival. I attend the forum yesterday. The forum was on the challenges and trend in malaysia film nowadays. Why the heck questions regarding language being brought up. Not really related on the problems being discussed. And the panels agreed that the main problem is money matters and some other issue that will bring the glory of films in Malaysia. But other issue has to be brought up. Dissapointed though. Even the anugerah at night was a bit monotonous and boring. I wanted to attend but guess luck was not on my side as i was somewhere else. Lazy to elaborate on this anymore.

I realised that i am becoming lazier this days. Reason being that all work and assignments given are not done yet. and if i have free time, i prefer sleeping or do nothing rather than get my ass off doing more useful stuff. I am becoming a pig for being so lazy. Please help me!!!! I could not find myself and feel like running away from all problems than facing them. But i have to faced them yet i am confused.

many things to write but dunno where to start

well.. i have been lazy updating blogs and sometimes i do not have the urged to write though i have many things to write down here.
Let me organize this and update this blog tomorrow.

Firsty, On Rapid Penang.
Second, Film Festival Malaysia.
Thirdly, Assignments


I am deprieve of sleep lately mainly on many things to think about and decisions to made..

Update soon! =)

Have a great weekend! =)