painstaking decision

after more than a week of contemplating.. i have come to make a decision. I hope it is the best choice i have make now. sigh. and wat a way to mark my decision day when i was handled a piece of summon by the police. damm it.. grr.. wonder it is a blessing in disguise.. arghh..

there are more interviews i wanted to go and try out.. but the "what if" question pop to my mind.. what if i rejected this.. and i wont get tat.. what if this is what i want.. and if i rejected it.. will i still have the chance??.. so many questions to ponder upon.. even after i have made the decision.. still.. there is 2 more interview i would like to go.. damm it.. hopefully i wont regret this.. haihs..

I will start working this Tuesday and yeah, it is not my field of study.. i guess some of you might have know it already.. IT's in PENANG and I am staying put here at the moment.. I shall give it one year to try out.. if all else fail.. and that i cannot perform.. i will be going back into my field of study.. *fingers crossed*...

and i can only hope for the best after making this decision.. i know this is NOT what i wanted.. but it's the BEST at the moment.. considering that i basically know what direction i want to go to, for the next 3 years time. =)

september already

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

it;s the last quarter of the year already and yet i have not made up my mind.. very indecisive of me.. but anway, i will will will finalize everything by this weekend and go for IT.

so many things to write... yet when i click on the new post button.. it's as if everything i wanted to write here. disappear from my mind..

to stay in penang or to go over to kl.. this two places is in my mind for weeks already. I wish was was more firm, determined and decisive. but yet i am so frail, weak and so indecisive to make a decision.

until a decision is made.. let's hope to a beginning of a good month.. and joy! =)